|설교 한 주일||July 11, 2010|
“Rabbi, I Want to See…”
People, in the time of Jesus Christ, called Jesus as “Rabbi”. When we translate the word Rabbi, in direct translation is ‘Teacher’.
(Reading of Mark 10:46 – 52 NIV)
46Then they came to Jericho. As Jesus and his disciples, together with a large crowd, were leaving the city, a blind man, Bartimaeus (that is, the Son of Timaeus), was sitting by the roadside begging. 47When he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to shout, "Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!"
48Many rebuked him and told him to be quiet, but he shouted all the more, "Son of David, have mercy on me!"
49Jesus stopped and said, "Call him." So they called to the blind man, "Cheer up! On your feet! He's calling you." 50Throwing his cloak aside, he jumped to his feet and came to Jesus.
51"What do you want me to do for you?" Jesus asked him.
The blind man said, "Rabbi, I want to see."
52"Go," said Jesus, "your faith has healed you." Immediately he received his sight and followed Jesus along the road.
Blind means merely we cannot see. I know one blind man personally. He was a pastor. He was a missionary to the Philippines. (Imagine that Pastor Bang is blinded when I preach you.) Pastor Reverend Shin actually established the church in Kanaynayan and even Lumibao. In the line of his service, he got sick and then lost his sight. That situation made him to return back to Korea. He spent several years in the Philippines; he was working for the people around Subic and Zambales. The time when I met him was he already got blinded. In Korea, I heard about him because he started the Kanaynayan Church and Lumibao Church. I met him in Korea. He was a cheerful man though he was blind. He couldn’t see but he speaks like he sees. “Oh, Pastor Bang, you are very good looking man!” he said. So in my heart, maybe he is a fake blind because in Manila there were also many blind men but fake – when I stop my car, there is a blind man who knocks on my car and when I give money, he sees it and says, “Sir, it’s only one peso!” that is the fake blind man. I told him, “You are not blind that is why I gave only one peso, if you are really blind, I will give five or ten pesos.” – And then he gave me all the CDs and (computer) programs, he knows how to do without eyes. I cannot do it with my eyes opened. If I press some ten keys, eighth key shall be DELETE key. I press ten key; I type ten words, maybe I’ll make eight times delete – always mistyped – but without his eyes, he is very good. He also started his own ministry in Korea. His ministry was so good. Through telephone and internet, he visits all the blind men. Then when Sunday comes, they gather together – all are blind men. But I heard when I visited Korea a couple of days ago that he passed away. It was really shocking. He got blinded because of diabetes and because that diabetes is getting more severe so he passed away (actually not passed away but he just return to his hometown).
When I see the blind man here (from the gospel of Mark), I don’t know if maybe he was blinded on the time that he was born. But this blind man could do nothing but only begging. Do you think that there is only one thing that the blind man can do in this world? I don’t criticize this blind man for this is not my point. But there is comparison between the two blind men when I told about Pastor Shin and this blind man in the Bible. Of course, the time is different but this blind man was in suffering because he has to sit down in the Lord’s side and then begging: “Have mercy on me! Have mercy on me! Have mercy on me!” There is nothing but begging. Maybe, he has no education. Maybe he has no relative or maybe no wife so he was in suffering. Imagine, just pretend to yourself that you could not see; what can you do? Why don’t you leave your eyes closed for just one hour; can you do that? Then you go around Olongapo City with one stick. During our seminar, we have time of just one hour pretending our self disabled – how this world is really uncomfortable for the disabled men. For example, if you cannot walk and stand, you have to rely on a wheelchair for twenty-four hours. But the blind man has to do just one thing – begging. In the Bible, he has no name but only you can find his father’s name, Timaeus. Pretending to yourself that you cannot see, what kind of things you’ve suppose to do? He (the blind man) has no name so maybe he has no future because he could not see…no future at all.
What about us? We can see but if we don’t see what we suppose to see, that means we are already blinded – blind with open eyes. If we are doing like this blind man same thing like sitting down on the sidewalks, you are the blind. If we don’t see what we suppose to see with no sight at all or short-sighted, I understand that you are blinded or I am blinded when I see what you are doing. Do not pretend to yourself that you see. This blind man really could not see at all but he could not do anything. If we are doing today the same things what this blind man is doing, you are worst than this blind man. This man is in suffering with only one situation that he could not see. But we don’t have that one problem. Even though we don’t have that problem, we can see. But when we have another thousand problems, those problems make our sight more worse. This blind man’s life is always needy. Why do we need such things? Sometimes, I think how happy I am if I have this…but I changed my mind. I changed my mind so I can see all things. When I changed my mind, that made me to see all things.
In our lives, the blindness always penetrates into our lives from our desires. When we have greed and dirty desires, we cannot see what is going on leading us o even kill our friend (in Korea even kill his own daughter a couple of days ago). All we did because of hunger, I understand when we get hungry all are miserable. When you got hungry for three days maybe you can steal something and when you go to the court you say, “Sir, I got hungry so I just steal some bread…” But the problem is we got hungry and then we steal everything. We got hungry so we need some piece of bread maybe but because of the hunger you kill to get something from him or her. That is happening not because of the blindness! So he was always weary, always tiresome. When I go to Manila, people are always coming asking for something (I counted sometimes six, sometimes three). Some says, “Pastor Bang, don’t give money to them. It’s better that you give them some food.” I asked, “Who said so?” “No, because with money they can do another thing…” They are tiresome because when they wake up they go to same place every day for begging only.
How to solve that problem? A man is suffering because of that blindness. He was actually needy, hungry and weary. But the needy need satisfaction. The needy have to be satisfied in certain way otherwise that need never disappear. But dear brothers and sisters, we, human being, have no any satisfaction! What makes you satisfied? It’s another fulfillment or achievement. We are doing all things in all tiresome situations: something that blocks us so we cannot see more further. Also we want to make our life more complete. In doing so, to make our life satisfactory and to achieve all our goal and desires and to make our life to come to the end, we are doing all things. I am blind so I do this; I am blind so I steal; I am hungry so I kill; I am weary so that I am doing… That is what we are doing! Then always when you are standing in the court, what do you say? Because I am blind…because I am hungry…because I have nothing… so I kill my wife! I am hungry so I broke the glass. I am hungry; I need some money so I get somebody’s cellular phone to pawn it. (If possible, I want to change the system in the Philippines about the cell phone.) We have excuse.
That blind man had a dream. Dream this means actually for his last chance…last hidden card. Why? Because he has done all things. It is just one dream, one hope he had. Maybe today we could not do but still we have a dream just like what this blind man is doing. Maybe our dream is too big to carry out. Maybe our dream is so great and huge so for me it looks like impossible. But what can we do, we have that dream in our lives? That dream is not coming from or not associated with our dirty desires! That dream makes our life more of Jesus.
I told you before, when I led one early morning devotion time in Korea; there is one man that got inside the church during the service. It was about 5:30 in the morning when he came in. I just went down and then I greet him during my sermon, “Brother…” but he was still drunk. Then he was crying, “Pastor Bang…” He was working in one of the bar; his job requires him to spend all of the night there. He tried to avoid from the drinking but when he roll down his shop and when he realized to himself that he was drunk, he reminds the word of God in Jesus in the morning. Five o’clock is the time for him to off. With that weary body, he gets inside the church and cry. That was his life. But I heard from him that he said, “Pastor, I have a dream. I will stop this business. The blind man has dream – just one solution, the dream is in his very bottom of his heart – I want to see so that I can escape; I will get rid of all this kind of dirty and weary and impossible life. I hated this life. I want to see but I don’t know how but I heard… Verse 47 says when he heard that… When we heard, when we listen to the word of God, when that word remains in you, when His word remains in you, that will become to a dream. So he heard about Jesus Christ, that’s it! What I did, I failed! I did all kinds of solutions (even went to Quiapo, to some Mercury drugstore even Makati Med, all around) but failed. But he heard of Jesus Christ; he never met Jesus Christ! He heard of Jesus Christ of what He has done to other people. Jesus healed the blind, he heard. But when we listen to the word of God: Jesus did it. “Oh, Jesus did it? That’s good…” but there’s nothing happened in your life! This is not a story but this is what the Bible tells us today; this is the word of the Lord speaking to you today if you are sitting down with closed eyes and doing nothing because of that disability.
So he has a dream about Jesus. What about you and me? We always say, “This is no good…our country is…our church is…Pastor Bang is…my wife is…my children are…my eyes…my life…my situation…my neighbors never help me…my barangay captain… my congressmen and Malacañang never help me…There’s no hope!” You always complain. Why we complain? Because we have no dream; because we have no word of God! How many Christian churches we have in the Philippines? How many Christian Churches we have in Olongapo City? I believe that this is the time we have to preach the word of God and then make people to have a dream. If they are sitting down their eyes closed. But you see, the Bible says believe. He believed that Jesus was his hope. Only Jesus was his hope; that is the faith, not the faith like ‘Jesus can do’ that is not faith! ‘Jesus can make myself something…’ that is not faith! The real faith is only Jesus do. Maybe somebody can do the same. Maybe somebody else like magicians can do the same result but I don’t get from them. What I want comes from Jesus Christ. That is the faith we have to have. I have my wife (that’s it)…I have my husband (that’s it)… I have my children (that’s it)… to whom you look for and to see? I have my country (that’s it)… I have my church (that’s it)…
Then he (the blind man) brought his dream to Jesus. His dream was, “I want to see…” That was his prayer. You don’t see because you don’t pray. You don’t have clue because you never have any desire. We have no any solution because we never bring it to the Lord. Then you say, “I pray, I attend…” When you see Psalms 118 and 119, I want you to read also: Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law… “Lord, help me listen to my prayer so that I will experience wonderful things in your law (I’m sorry, not your life)…” What about our prayer? I’m sorry to say…I’m a Korean and I like how the Korean prays. Korean prays like this blind man: “Son of David! Don’t go away, Son of David! Jesus, don’t go away! I’m here! I’m sitting down! I’m blind! Don’t go away!” But the Filipino prays like, “Jesus, bahala kayo…” I’m sorry to say, but we pray like that. “Jesus don’t go, I have problem! I have burning desire, I want to see! I want to see! Thousand days of my life sitting down…I want see! I want to see! When I listen to the clicking and dropping of coins in my front, I was so shameful. I was so shameful! So I have a real desire – I want to see! So I found Jesus, you are my last hope!” Then he was heard by Jesus Christ and he never missed the chance. We don’t cry because we are not really hungry. We don’t need Jesus because we don’t need Jesus. We never call Him because we don’t need Him. Maybe He can give us mercy. Jesus is your last and only one hope. And then Jesus stopped. You pray that Jesus will stop – your real vision and dream so that Jesus stops. I have dream in my life that is not for me; believe it or not this is glory of the Lord. What about you?
Approach in real approaching. We have many access but only one way. I don’t like other blessings, maybe more fancy, maybe more twinkle just like a little star, maybe more sparkling but I don’t like. I like something from Jesus Christ that is what I want. That is the real approaching on our lives. This blind man never shouts to anybody, “Is there any Jesus? You are Jesus?” no! They have a counter-current – current which is against you, wind which is against you. People say, “Shut up!” but we have burning desire: “Lord, I want to see!” Do you know the prayer of Hanna: “My Lord, I want to have one baby! I want just one baby, give it to me and I will return it to you!” That is the desire. That is counter-current so we have to break. Never mind what they are talking about. That’s not your business! My business is to see Jesus. That’s my business! That’s consistency. Hope you remember how to keep your life, how to get attraction of Jesus Christ. May God bless you.
Rev. David Bang